A playbook for surviving separation.

maxresdefaultIf you’re reading this you’re probably hurting, or maybe you’re still numb from shock, either way I’m here for you. I can’t inform you of your own experience but I can tell you what I dealt with and perhaps we can find some kinship in our shared sorrow.

At first, it wasn’t possible. There’s no way this is real was one thought but in the background of my mind I knew the truth of it. Soon the pain came and it was bad. At first hatred stood in the way, guarding me from the fullness of the pain but hatred is a bad dude and I had to ask him to stand down and take the blow myself. Without hatred to protect me the pain was intense searing shock, it cracked me open like an egg and my emotional goo spilled out, but low and behold I did not actually die.

The first play in the playbook is the passing play. Check your field of teammates and see who is open. Let them know you need a hand, that’s literally exactly what friends are for. They might bring you a bowl of pho or take you out to the bar, either way being with someone who does care about you and thinks that your dark humor is funny is a really good first step.

When you wake up on your friends couch the next morning and realize you are still alive and all of those things really did happen it’s time for the Hail Mary. This may seem rash, but it’s the best shot you’ve got. Trust the experience, allow the feelings to occur. If you feel like crying then cry for god-sakes! Don’t hold that in. just let it happen.  As the Beatles would say, let it be.

Okay so you’re at home now and you’ve done a fair amount of crying. This is the time to pull out the I formation. That’s the bonus of being single, you don’t have to worry about anyone else anymore! Sure you’ll be there for your friends if the need arises but you’re not including someone in each moment of your life anymore. Eat what you like, do what you want and do it all knowing that your team is still behind you. They want whats best for you and hopefully so do you.

Necessary Line – Set clear boundaries. This is always important to do but how easy or difficult it is will vary depending on a number of outside factors. If you intend to never speak to or see this person again then that’s easy, there’s the line. If you have other connections such as business holdings or children together setting clear boundaries takes more effort but it’s also much more important. Take time to reflect on what you are and are not comfortable with and let your ex partner know where these lines are (ideally before they are ever crossed).

Hey don’t forget about the running plays. I know it’s easy to binge netflix until your joints actually stop working but eventually you have to advance in your life. So go outside, yes out of doors and do some things. What do you like? Or better yet, what did you like before you met this person? Depending on how capable you feel anything from going for a walk around your neighborhood to getting involved in the community with volunteer work, or even finding a new job or going traveling. Stick your head back into the outside world and test the waters. Don’t push yourself if you’re not ready but don’t let fear stop you either.

Once you find something that fits and makes you feel like an actual human being again Go Pattern that business! Run straight ahead, you can afford to be ambitious and dedicated now because you’re not spending any time or attention on a relationship.

Moving on is good. Its ugly and painful and difficult but it’s good.

Overtime, there’s no such thing. Give yourself as much time as you need. Keep track of your progress and know that as long as you are moving forward you’re winning.

You might lament and think, I still love them, well good that’s fine love them. That is not actually sad. Love is taking someone in and seeing them as you, seeing your sameness, that doesn’t have to end. The attachment is what needs to be released. Attachment and love are not one and the same thing. “You’re no longer demanding that things that are not permanent be permanent.” -Eckhart Tolle.

If it feels like you’re dying then just know that death always precedes rebirth and prepare to come out of the darkness as a freer version of yourself.

Blessed Be.

 

 

Some resources that helped me,

Positive affirmations see my post on that here:

https://womanoffaeries.wordpress.com/2017/03/29/affirming-your-worth/

Amazing flower essences and herbal remedies from: http://kodiakherbal.com/

Aromatherapy – Rosewood

doyogawithme.com search-yoga for self love

Teal Swan & Eckhart Tolle both have extensive youtube libraries.

Eat Pray Love by Elizabeth Gilbert

The Edible Woman by Margaret Atwood

Meditation

Gratitude lists, write one each morning and one before you go to bed

 

 

 

 

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